So after being at Urban Seed for 6 months I am now finally doing their orientation course. Due to the fact they took me as a mid year intake, which is rare, I did not get orientation. I am being really stimulated by the conversations we are having. We are going through a set of Dave Andrews videos (Yay for Guru Dave) which led us to a discussion about inviting pain to be at the centre of community which does not mean sitting in misery all the time but it does mean creating spaces for our own and other peoples fears, anxieties, shames etc. I was really challenged because I have felt really happy lately and don’t feel that I have been connecting with my own and other peoples pain very well. We also had one of the Melbourne City Councillors come and talk to us about the Councils vision for the city and the homeless. His name was also Dave (Mil do you rememeber that conversation about your obseession with anyone named Dave, I think I have it now).  Anyway back to the point, I felt really inspired and at peace because he is a Christian and a spiritual man and really believes in the Kingdom of God here on earth and how part of that means that no one lives homeless and that homelessness is more than just not having a house. The Council have some ideas that seem really practical and important and it is great that Urban Seed and him have a good connection.  This morning we also had a deep and profound chat about the Trinity as model for community. Amen brothers and sisters.     

Back in blog world with no idea what to write. I am very tired but decided to catch the lift down from level 9 to level 3 to read blogs and write a post. I feel that I have to break this disconnection that I have been having from footboot. 

I quit my waitressing job in St Kilda today for the obvios reason that Urban Seed is about to get back into the swing of its life and uni is not that far off either. I can’t say that I feel at all sad about it quitting, which is a shame because it means that it was only ever a job and never really a mob. I have a new job at the Big Issue. That is right everyone buy your Big Issue from me, it is a fascinating read. Nah joke, I am not selling the magazine but I will be booking pitches with vendors and confirming when people are working, and when I am lucky I will get to go around and chat with the guys and gals who are selling, to see how they are going and stuff. Every second Saturday morning from 9am to 1pm. What a perfect time because there is no way that it will cut into my study time because as dedicated as I try to be to study 9am Saturday morning would be stretching it.

Work, sleep, move people in, work, sleep, clean up, work. Yes this has basically been my life since arriving back in Melbourne. It does not feel much like holidays. I had one great night however on the evening of the 1,2/08. I danced for like 7hrs straight at a fantastic trance gig, at a club called Altitude. I went with a friend who uses a frame to walk as she has a muscular degenerative disease but she just loves listening to trance and her favourite DJ, who is a women, came on a 5:00 am.  So we did the all nighter. I kept on thinking of this song that I heard here at Urban Seed written by a guy for his little daughter. A line in it says, “It’s so much fun when I wiggle my bum,    in the air.”

Also Happy Birthday to my delightful Dad. Today is his birthday. Anyone who wants to pray that his 48th year is a year of growth and peace and happiness, then that would be really appreciated. I called Tony (dad) the other day because I was feeling confused and worried and he reminded me that it is not all so terrible and that I can do it. Yeah sometimes I just need simple reminders like that. So for all you beautiful people reading, it is not all so terrible and you can do it.